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Fic: Without You (Sirius/Remus)

Title: Without You
Author: theatresweety
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 285
Prompt: lover100 062: Should Of...
Summary: While Sirius is imprisoned, Remus thinks back on all the things he should have told him.
Warnings: Implied M/M.

Disclaimer: Basically, they're not mine I just like playing with them. So, don't sue me.

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I never really realized how many things I'd left unspoken in our relationship. Sometimes these things don't ever come to the surface until the one you're so used to seeing every day, so used to talking to is gone. When you no longer have that familiar presence in your life to chat with you understand just how much you should have said but never got around to. I suppose I'm just like everyone else, thinking back on all the things I should have done, should have said.

I should have told him how that ridiculous grin of his could light up a room. How it was capable of making me smile even in the dreariest of times. That absurd grin that made him look slightly cocky and arrogant but oh-so shag-able.

While on that note, I can't ever forget how he'd look at me just after we'd made love. Those shining grey orbs, heavy-lidded but glinting with a mixture of mischief and absolute adoration. I've never had anyone look at me like that before and don't think I ever will again.

I should have mentioned how fantastic he smelled. Maybe not all the time and most certainly not his cologne, but just after a shower when it was so perfectly Sirius. So masculine and yet sweet with just a hint of something spicy about him.

I never told him his laugh was perfect. That almost barking sound that always reminded me of Padfoot. It was a happy noise, and so perfectly him. Nothing about Sirius was ever quiet or understated and I miss that.

But most importantly of all, I should have told him just how completely and irrevocably I loved him.

Comments

( 8 comments — Leave a comment )
remuslives23
Oct. 24th, 2009 10:49 am (UTC)
*clutches at heart* Ow! So sad! :(
theatresweety
Oct. 24th, 2009 10:52 am (UTC)
-hug- It's okay. This is set while Sirius is in Azkaban. Remus gets to see him again still. ^_^ And you know, I've always had a knack for the sad and heart-tugging stories. Happy, funny or light is okay but I much prefer my darker work. Ta!
dogsunderfoot
Oct. 25th, 2009 03:57 am (UTC)
Gosh, the regret just BLEEDS through every word!
theatresweety
Oct. 25th, 2009 04:40 am (UTC)
Shall I take that as a compliment? Lol.
dogsunderfoot
Oct. 25th, 2009 04:45 am (UTC)
Please do! :) I thought it was fantastic!
theatresweety
Oct. 25th, 2009 04:51 am (UTC)
Thank you very much! :D
scaratthedisco
Oct. 25th, 2009 12:27 pm (UTC)
Ahhh. My heart just shattered. </3 So well done, though.
theatresweety
Oct. 26th, 2009 01:39 am (UTC)
Thank you very much!
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